Today is so much better.  I'm not sure why... it could be a number of reasons...

1.  I had a nice text from S this morning.  She said she's seeing a softer side of me and it's comfortable.  She also shared her anxiety about a meeting at work, and I wrote back to reassure her, and we had a lovely exchange.

2. I have a counseling session tomorrow.  Although now, of course, I'm wondering if I really need it!  But I do want to talk about my anxiety for the semester.

3. I went back to sleep.  I woke up around 8:30 and my adrenaline was racing.  I was so nervous about teaching... I felt like I could feel my heart pounding.  I laid there for about an hour and finally fell asleep again.

4.  S sent me her document about hope... she had a notebook page of information she's been gathering, and I asked her to send it to me because that's one concept with which I really struggle... I understand the idea of hope in heaven, but not on earth.  It's S's word for the year.  I like this verse:

·         “And now, O Lord, for what do I wait” My hope is in you. Deliver me from all my transgressions.” Psalms 39:7