Finally, I slept well last night. Midnight to 8am. The night before I slept midnight to six, but was awake 6-12 times during the night, often for 5-15 minutes, and I wasn't sure I went back to sleep at all after 3am.
Getting restless. H is gone for a week, leaving today. Haven't gotten a text from S since Friday... I didn't even text her yesterday. Haven't heard from N since Saturday. I need these people.
Am trying to decide if I'm depressed or not. I tried to just say "no, I'm not" and get on with my day, but hasn't worked so far. Maybe it's time to break out the plan I made with H.
On a more positive note...
- I went grocery shopping last night, so can practically eat whatever I want today. :)
- I have an easy lesson to teach today
- um, I can't think of three. S always asks for things in threes. Although lately she'll sometimes say two... one, to throw me off because I'm expecting a three, but two because she knows my brain doesn't automatically think in threes. Getting from two to three is the most difficult for me.
UPDATE: Psalm 118 is amazing. I could feel my mood changing even a few verses in, and by verse 14, I was happy. Also sent out a note or two and had a smoothie.
- I'm thankful for the Psalms!
- Thankful for my friends... they really are amazing.
Keep building on your thankfulnesses. It is a wonderful part of journeying to be stronger.
ReplyDeleteFor this week, I challenge you to think of ways that you can be strong and take care of yourself even *without* S and H. Even after they return, it will have served you well to begin building independence.
Baby steps.
I know I can be strong without S because I've been doing it the past three months... I can even take care of her... I just miss her.
DeleteTexting is the majority of my social interaction, other than church. I live by myself, so that's who I talk to, share our days, thoughts, etc. Kinda lonely without texts.
Hi Liz, I just discovered your blog. Ana, sent me over. I've read through your posts. It sounds like getting a decent amount of sleep is rare for you, so I'm really glad that you were able to. I'm sorry you're friend H is leaving for a week. I know you'll miss her.
ReplyDeleteNot sleeping well or consistently has been an issue for me the past six years or so... guess I just got used to it!
DeleteThanks for the sympathy; I'm already thinking "she's only been gone one day?" :D