It's night, it's quiet, and I have more time to think, which isn't really a good thing at this point.  I was doing fine today!  I can feel that nervousness peeking around from behind my stomach.  Go away.

I AM doing well overall, and I keep telling myself that.  I haven't freaked out, I haven't broken down crying... but I have been very tempted to act out and get into trouble.  It's kind of difficult to actually get into trouble, and I'd probably have to hurt a friend to do so, so I avoid it as much as possible.  No one tells me what to do, so I can't defy anyone and get in trouble that way.  It's so difficult to get into trouble (yeah, I know, I won't hear most of you complaining about that).

I was going to spank myself today, but never really wanted to.  Oh wait, I did this morning and forgot about it.  Tomorrow might be a different story.

H and I are meeting Friday.  I've been thinking about that a lot-- at least I have something to (semi) look forward to.  ;)