So tired, and food hasn't been agreeing with me lately... I'd like to just stop eating altogether.  I think I'm going to have to focus on taking care of myself this week.  Last week was okay, but not great, and I can feel myself slipping back into "normal."

Went over to H's today, and we talked a bit.  She was happy to hear how well I was doing.  She mentioned the meals I cooked for her, and how much they meant to her, and how she was touched because it meant I was thinking of her and her needs.  I wish I could remember all because it was mushily lovely.  But it made me happy because she considers me a friend... ya know, she's just one of those people who's nice to everyone and so it's sometimes hard to tell if the friendship is reciprocal.

Speaking of non-reciprocal friendships, S is driving me crazy.  She doesn't respond-- at all-- when I say something important.  I don't expect her to respond to every little text I send, but when I tell her something big like my brother is having a baby or my friends are getting divorced, then yeah, it would be nice to have at least confirmation that it was heard.  Nothing.  I want to be her for her and I love her and care about her, but this is driving me a bit crazy.  I don't even know if she likes me anymore (I've asked her twice, but guess what, she never responded).  So, I've texted her once since Tuesday and will probably just keep it brief till then.  If she needs me, I'll be there, but I'm not volunteering information... send it to someone who cares.

Anyway, don't want to end on a negative note (S taught me that, and I was very conscious of that with my emails afterwards)... had a really lovely weekend with the camping and hiking, and visits with friends today.  Glad I came home a bit early yesterday to get some work done; I don't like going into the workweek stressed and feeling behind.  Another friend said I was responsible to do so.  :)  Went to a great church service where the sermon was MUCH too short, and had some good fellowship afterward.

It will be a good week.